Quitter?!

Wow. My amazing father has been nothing but loyal to your cheating, alcoholic ass in the last how many years and YOU call HIM a quitter? I know you’re almost two years sober, but girl you must be on something if you truly believe that. At this point, whether he finally divorces you or not, consider us divorced. I have a dad. I have a mom. I have a brother and a sister who don’t deserve this drama. But I no longer have a stepmother. I have kept my mouth shut for the longest time, but fuck that. I am livid. You have officially lost ALL of my respect.

Day 5.

Wow! I seriously suck at keeping up with this thing! I thought I was doing so well too.. 

What song inspires you?

Hmm, I don’t know if it inspires me per say, but it most definitely lifts my spirits whenever I’m in a shitty mood. Not only is John Mayer one of my all time favorites artists, and not only does his voice simply soothe my soul, but this song’s message is just uplifting and freeing in a way. The song’s purpose is to encourage people to speak up. Get the courage and confess your feelings to that guy, tell your coworker that you think they treat you like shit, apologize when you know you’ve wronged someone. Don’t bottle up emotions because getting them all out on the table is exactly what everyone needs. So, I guess this song really does inspire me. It inspires me to voice my opinion and my feelings no matter what and to not let others treat me like a doormat. Thanks John.

Day 4.

Your parents

These are definitely some of my favorite pictures I have with my mom and dad. I am so happy that today’s challenge’s focus was on my parents. My dad called me today and we had an amazing talk that lasted about an hour. He calls at least once a week just to remind me that he loves me and to see how I’m doing since I live an hour away with my mom. Today’s talk just reminded me that I am so incredibly lucky to have the father that I do. And the mother for that matter. My brother and sister have a different mom. A different mom with some major issues. I am so grateful that my mom is who she is. Both of my parents have always done everything in their power to make sure I grew up the right way. Seeing my younger siblings go through what they are with their mom shows me how amazing and carefree my childhood was in comparison. 

Anyways, I realize this post is very unorganized, but overall, I’m just trying to say that my parents are the best. Hands down. It doesn’t matter that their relationship didn’t work out for whatever reason. I never went through emotional or educational struggles because of their separation. In my mind, it was always that way and I never felt like I came from a “broken home” and I always knew they loved me just the same.

 

Ps. I’m definitely making my babies wear cute bows on their head like my parents did. (:

Rainy Wednesday.

Well, it’s pouring. I usually am a fan of this weather, unless I’m at school, but since it started as I was leaving class this morning I’m a happy camper. I’ve been snuggled up with my cat, listening to rainy day playlists on 8tracks for the past hour. I love it. I’m about to pour myself a glass of wine and hop in the bath. I don’t care if it’s four p.m., I worked my ass off yesterday. I deserve this. Then hopefully I’ll be inspired enough to finish Mikey’s belated Valentine’s Day card. Unfortunately I was stuck at work all day and had no time to finish it yesterday. 

Also, just a small update on my life.. I got my permit! Finally! So, hopefully in just a few weeks, with enough practice, I’ll be able to pass the behind the wheel test. Look at this twenty year old, finally growing up! It’s exciting. Things are looking up. This year is gonna be mine. I can feel it.

Well, my bathtub is calling!

xo

In A Hurry.

Lately, I’ve been feeling like everything is happening to slowly. Like I’ll never accomplish the basic things I want right now. I try my best to take the necessary steps towards these wishes, but always seems to come up short.

For example, I want my license. The first time I went to the DMV they needed my original birth certificate, therefore causing me to reschedule. The next time I go, ALL of California’s DMVs’ systems have crashed. Like, how often does THAT happen? Then, I finally go, get my picture taken, take the test, and miss two too many. This is getting so frustrating especially when I start thinking about how even once I have my permit, I have to go back and pass the actual driving test. If by some miracle I pass that I still have to find a car I like and can afford.

I’d also like to be able to move out sometime in the very near future, but saving money seems damn near impossible. I work about four to five days a week for about four to six hours each shift. Although I get tips on top of my minimum wage, it just doesn’t even seem plausible for me to be able to afford even the cheapest rent. I’d like to find random side jobs to earn some extra money to put away, but that leads me back to the driving issue. I have enough trouble finding rides to work as it is without adding another job to the equation.

Christmas is coming up and I have a great gift idea for my boyfriend, but I’m starting to doubt that I’ll have the money in time to get it for him. If I did get the money, I’m afraid I won’t be able to afford gifts for anyone else. Ugh. I think this time of year is just stressful in general. It’s a shame that Christmas has turned into a time for chaotic shopping and maxed out credit cards. What happened to it just meaning cheerful people, good food, and just being around the people who matter most to you?

I’d really just like to sleep right now, but there are too many stressful thoughts bouncing around my head. And here comes a headache. Wonderful.

Sorry to stress you guys out.. haha. Goodnight!

xo

Thanksgiving.

Hey all!
Wow, it’s been awhile. Sorry about that. I’m currently on my way back from San Diego. I broke a personal tradition today and spent Thanksgiving with my boyfriend’s family instead of my own. I guess it’s growing up though. Plus, this way he has to come to my family’s Christmas which is way better than Thanksgiving, in my opinion. At least, at my grandma’s house it is.

Today was awesome though. There was so much delicious food. I tried yams for my first time and I have to admit they were probably my favorite thing I had today. I’ve also discovered that I’m a true wine-o at heart. I can’t wait to be seventy years old, drinking red wine in a hot bath everyday.

Although, I didn’t get to spend today with my family, I still felt extremely welcomed and it was like I was amongst family. I’m so thankful for that, for my family, for my friends, for my loving boyfriend, and just for my life in general. I’m also pretty stoked for leftovers! I hope you all had a good one! Til next time.
xo

Vegas.

Guess who just got back from a magnificent weekend in Sin City! Yep, it was me! It was a last minute thing, but of course, I made arrangements with work and got my butt down there. My boyfriend’s dad had a work party there, so they rented out the Marquee club at the Cosmopolitan. We stayed in an amazing room on the 57th floor of the Cosmo where we had the most beautiful view all day and all night.

Coincidentally, a group of our friends were also in Vegas and staying at the Cosmo, so we were super excited. We became even more excited when we found out they were staying in the penthouse suite on the very top floor. It was a friend’s birthday, a friend who is pretty well off, and he had reserved a wrap-around suite. Upon checking in they apologized and said they had accidentally booked the extra room he requested, so they gave him the penthouse to make up for it. It was INSANE! The room was huge, and completely gorgeous.

Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to get into the Marquee for the party since I’m under 21, so I just partied in the penthouse with my friends, which worked for me. We explored the Chandelier Bar which is what the Cosmopolitan is famous for. The chandelier is three stories high with a bar inside. I loved it. The second night, we went out to dinner with my boyfriend’s dad and his coworkers. We went to this crazy nice sushi place called Social House. I’m not a big sushi fan, and just an overall picky eater, so I ordered teriyaki chicken just to be safe. I took a few chances and tasted a couple rolls and random dishes, but overall stuck to my chicken and some kobi beef tacos. Oh, and the desserts. The desserts alone are worth going to this place, if you have the cash, that is. Our bill was over $600 for eight people.. Thank God dinner was on Mikey’s dad and his associate.

After that Mikey and I became an old married couple, and headed to the room for a couple drinks and some TV. The night before and the long day had completely burnt us out. Our trip was such a blast. I miss Vegas already. Although, I am happy to be back at home, relaxing in my bed.

xo

Conan.

Wow, today was nothing short of exhausting. I woke up at 7am, and in case you didn’t know, this is incredibly early for me. If it were up to me I’d sleep until at least 11:30 everyday, but unfortunately, that’s not always an option. My favorite band is All Time Low. I know, it’s a bit embarrassing, but I’ve been a fan as long as they’ve been a signed band, so I don’t care. Anywho, they were on the Conan O’Brien show tonight. (Check it out & look for me!)

Olivia, with whom I go to almost every show, and I decided it was necessary to leave at 8am since it’s in LA and we had to be there before 10. Oh, the things we do for those boys sometimes.. So, we trekked out there and discovered we would definitely be getting tickets to the show since there were only four other fans waiting.

Once we got out standby tickets, we decided to get some breakfast and coffee in our systems. We also got some shopping done and I found the shoes I need for my Halloween costume, so I feel pretty productive. After killing two hours, we returned to the studio and waited one more hour before being escorted inside.

We had pretty decent seats and also were able to see interviews with Tom Selluck and Julianne Hough which was pretty cool. Finally, what we waited all day for, All Time Low took the stage and did their thang. All in all, it was worth it. I passed out on the ride home having only had five hours of sleep the night before. Once home, I was forced to do two hours of homework, and now I am finally ready to call it a night.

I wish my stress was over the second this blog is, but unfortunately, I have a nonstop day tomorrow as well. I have to wake up an hour earlier than I usually would to do more homework, then it’s straight to a hair appointment (I know, poor me). From the salon, I’m going straight to school to take a quiz and then I have to study for a final. And then FINALLY I can pack for Vegas and relax all weekend with my boyfriend and his parents, which totally makes all this stress worth it. I’ll let y’all know how it goes.

Goodnight!

20.

Well, I haven’t been to great at keeping up with this lil’ page here, so let me fill you in.

I am officially twenty years old. The 28th of September is my birthday, so I’ve almost been twenty for a month! I’ve almost been twenty for a month, and yet, I still said I was nineteen today. I can’t get used to it. Anywho, I had a white trash themed birthday party, and I must say it was ridiculously awesome. A lot of my friends got pretty into it and I had an amazing time. As you will see below, one of my best friends magically became impregnated and the other joined the KKK.

I’d just like to take a moment

I’d like to take a moment to say how truly grateful I am for the people in my life. I’ve been sick in bed all day, thinking about the past couple of weeks and how great they have been. I have the most amazing friends that anyone could ask for. I know, everyone says this about their friends, but it couldn’t be anymore true when it comes to mine. They are always there when I need them, regardless of how long it’s been since our last conversation. Recently, I’ve had the pleasure of getting to know a few friends a little better and I love it. I love getting to know people on a whole new level. I love having more people that I can trust and confide in. Thank you all.